The ‘Good Girl' tropes and other things

I’m hovering around a fireplace in bondage lingerie… Typical.

I’ve been thinking lately about certain scenarios that really twist my mind into such pleasurable modes, why is that?

Tropes shape our understandings of ourselves, we, seeking to understand and define our identities. My fascination particularly stems from how they play out with us in the erotic sense. The trope of the good student / play-thing / inappropriate relative/incest roleplay… (yes, often highly taboo things) evidently provides my subconscious with – unbeknownst to me consciously; a pattern i’ve related to and adopt as part of my self-perception. Apparently this goes with finding a sense of meaningfulness or belonging, in playful senses, due to ‘the good student’s expectations, roles, strengths, weaknesses etc.

What do these roles i’m often playing the part of have in common? Seemingly I revel in the connotations of innocence, purity, societal ideals of sorts. And take a great deal of literal pleasure in subverting them.

I know it’s not my own limiting my view of myself, as what is maybe clear on meeting me, often i am anything but submissive. A narrative being of course just a fantasy. But it’s that kind of shame is both liberating in one sense and embarrassing in the other. And for people that get turned on by it, it’s a beautiful moment, because they realize they’re getting even more turned on by the fact that they’re being exposed, which makes them even more ashamed, which makes them even more turned on. You get this beautiful shame spiral that just starts spinning all the way down.

She contains multitudes

The same goes for my partners, too. Human beings are not one-dimensional characters. we possess a range of traits, strengths, vulnerabilities.. of which kink lets us explore in a totally fun, uninhibited, safe way, ultimately allowing for self-acceptance (how nice) and as i believe, even a dash of personal growth.

There’s no fully figuring out a partner. It just goes on and on. That’s the draw to me of bdsm, interacting deeply with one another.